I am away.
Far away now from most of the things in this life I have come to love, to accept, to miss.
And that I do; I miss them all, deeply.
But this I chose, and this choice was hard, as most the greats tend to be.
Something inside of me though has always yearned for adventure, and that is where I currently find myself, both in terms of mind and of body.
This too happens to be something that I have come to love, to accept, to miss as well.
How couldn’t I?
Now you see where the contrast lies.
Life does that.
It never matches up.
Never offers everything at once.
Never allows you to find your stride in one without tripping you up with the other.
On one hand I want stable, I want unity, I want consistence.
On the other I want movement, I want differences, I want unexpected.
Currently I am experiencing the latter, and though I am enjoying it fully, currently I am yearning for the former.
So what to do?
I will begin to both allow and to challenge myself to find the two within the same.
Within those and thats that my life has formed into my stables, I will find the movement, the differences, the unexpected.
Rather, I will allow them their opportunity to flourish within my life.
No longer block them.
No longer believe them not to be.
Within those and thats where my life has provided my movement, I will find the stable, the unity, the consistence.
Rather, I will allow them their opportunity to grow within my life.
No longer stunt them.
No longer doubt their strength, their purpose.
If the fates allow,
I will do this with those and thats that I have come to love, to accept, to miss.
This I hope they do allow.
Since I am still here, this they do.
One final effort before the sun sets.
If, of course, the fates do allow.